work.

it's been almost 2 months that i've been working at my new job. i have to say it's been really chill at the start.. but the longer i stayed the more challenging it got. 1st the biggest challenge i have is waking up early.. because apparently i have lost the ability to wake up early like high school days. it's hard for me now because at night i cant sleep early and the reason is either i am pre occupied with a lot of stuff.. or i aint tired enough to fall asleep.. my boss is like my own mom and it's crazy because she keeps me always at the tip of my toes. she owns a business of hardwood floors in north hollywood and i must say she is so good at what she does. I see her as a businesswoman and an entrepeneur who always strives her best to get things done no matter what. i've been messing up lately with coming to work and yesterday was my 3rd strike. i cannot.. be late nemore.. for work.. because i believe she would fire me.. and i cant afford to lose my job.. i need the money.


on another side of my life.. my relationship with Christ i believe is building up.. i've been consistent in doing my devotions and my actions are changing.. i feel so different now.. like where did 22 years go of my life? it feels like i grew up too fast. i want to go back to high school days.. and experience more young life. anyways.. i'm working on focusing more on Christ more than nething now.. and i really want my relationship with Christ to be genuinely true and real.


i've been going to LA fitness with cyril and i must say i see results already.. i cnt wait for more everytime i got to the gym i get so motivated to get cut and lean and toned up..



well.. this is it for now.. my boss might be coming soon.. i gotta go do business..



i love you alyzzah nicole!





JESUS YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND.. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE... NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE THAT>!

A deeper love.. in Christ.

It's been a very long time since i wrote in this.. but i think ima start writing again since i got a tad bit more time in my hands and i feel like venting out..


for the past year from 2007, a lot of things have been happening in my life.


- i graduated from college

- got a new car

- got my family in shape and together

- rededicated my life to CHRIST...

- i know there's a whole lot more i just cant think of them all right now.


i need to change, change my life.. change it for the better.. i need to put in CHRIST more.. i knoe i should and i need to.. because i knoe that things are not going the way it should be because He's not in total control..


i need to tithe more.. need to be less selfish and put trust in HIM completely..


i need to centralize my relationship with my significant other with CHRIST.. because that's the only way...


i knoe i hurt you.. i knoe i'm not the best when you need me.. i'm not there.. and i yell at you.. i scream and be a jerk.. i'm sorrie.. alyzzah nicole..


here's a couple of quote's that's really got into me.


" For a woman's heart should be so hidden in CHRIST, that he should see HIM (GOD) to find her."

" Our relationship with CHRIST should not be based on rules, but on a deeper love for HIM (JESUS CHRIST)."


these words might loose you.. but it's just thoughts that are inside my head.. i'm not good at writing.. just venting out of my feelings..



I LOVE YOU.. JESUS CHRIST.. help me find you.. get closer to you deeper and deeper day by day. show me the way and plans that you have for me.. and i will follow you..