"your my only hope."

hi,



i havent written in this thing for a long long time.. i dont even know if anyone really reads my blogs, but i know at least 1 person that does..


anyways.. i've been keeping something inside of me for quite a while now.. a fear.. fear of making a certain decision in my life.. fear of finding my real purpose, fear of failing.. fear of dissappointing everyone that's counting on me.. fear of defeat..


i'm in a lot of debt, bills to pay.
school is not doing so good.. i cant focus because i get so tired from working..
i want to go to Respiratory theraphy school but dont have the funds to pay for every bills that i have.. so i cant go full time in school..
made a really dumb decision of buying a car that i can barely afford when my parents sacrificed money to pay off a car that wasnt bad, ruin or damaged at all..
have a math test tomorrow spent all this time trying to study and nothing's going in my head..


all this things.. i'm trying to juggle in my head.. thinking.. thinking of what to do..



In the midst of all this.. there's one thing i'm glad and really blessed for.. and i'm damn proud to have in my life.. her name is alyzzah nicole raymundo..


She is the only one.. that always believed in me.. as a friend, gf, and immediate family.. she's willing to do everything just to put a smile on my face and make me feel alright.. through thick and thin, through struggles and happiness.. she was always there..

She makes me want to be somebody, be better.. be the best i can be.. in everything in my life..
she convinces me that i can.. me.. i can do anything.. I love her with all my heart..



dear alyzzah nicole raymundo,

This message is for you.. and all i really want to say is..


THANK YOU.. for always.. being there.. and loving me, supporting me.. believeing in me when everybody else didnt.. putting trust faith hope and love in me..


YOUR MY only "hope."


love,
jeffpaulo.

the weirdest and craziest e-mail i've ever received.

E-mail username : lovehappycakes@yahoo.com


named used: JA

message:

If you really want her to stick around, don't ever let her feel unimportant. God knows how much you love her, I know how much you love her, everyone you know knows how much you love her, she knows how much you love her. When you and her get back together, you will be an inspiration to many other couples to lead the same lives in faith, holiness, and trust. Sometimes you can't do it alone, because you and her are a beautiful unity, too beautiful to be broken.

God Bless.




this really freaked me out but in a good way.. i feel like God sent this message to me.. wow.. what a crazy crazy day.. i love you AR.. you know who u are.. dont ever feel unimportant cuz you are very important to me.. and very special.. sorrie for my short comings.. i miss you and i love you AR.. you know who u are.




spiritually growing, maturing, living life for JESUS CHRIST.. in HIS perfect timing.. we'll be together again..



IN HIM we.. both trust.