stress.life.love.everything.

stress:
bills, bills, bills.. i just want it all to end.. seriously.. doing everything possible to come up with money to get rid of this dumb bills..


life:
set on what goal i need to accomplish.. RESPIRATORY THERAPHY.. come next february.. it's on.. gametime baby.. no mess ups.. just focus on one goal..

love:
alyzzah nicole raymundo.. my destiny, and my future.. i am fully convinced.. that you are that in my life.. i just wish and pray that i wont fail.. and give you the best ever in life..



everything: i'm glad that i am able to help and make a difference to these people's lives: monica, von, andro, stephen.. i love ya'll and i hope that ya'll never stray away.. take care of each other and always remember of what really is much important.. ( you know what i mean.)


GOD, i'm sorry.. that i've failed you.. over and over again in my life.. but i'm thankful.. because your a God of many chances.. help me be more on fire.. for you.. IN JESUS NAME.. AMEN>



- jeffpaulo.

"your my only hope."

hi,



i havent written in this thing for a long long time.. i dont even know if anyone really reads my blogs, but i know at least 1 person that does..


anyways.. i've been keeping something inside of me for quite a while now.. a fear.. fear of making a certain decision in my life.. fear of finding my real purpose, fear of failing.. fear of dissappointing everyone that's counting on me.. fear of defeat..


i'm in a lot of debt, bills to pay.
school is not doing so good.. i cant focus because i get so tired from working..
i want to go to Respiratory theraphy school but dont have the funds to pay for every bills that i have.. so i cant go full time in school..
made a really dumb decision of buying a car that i can barely afford when my parents sacrificed money to pay off a car that wasnt bad, ruin or damaged at all..
have a math test tomorrow spent all this time trying to study and nothing's going in my head..


all this things.. i'm trying to juggle in my head.. thinking.. thinking of what to do..



In the midst of all this.. there's one thing i'm glad and really blessed for.. and i'm damn proud to have in my life.. her name is alyzzah nicole raymundo..


She is the only one.. that always believed in me.. as a friend, gf, and immediate family.. she's willing to do everything just to put a smile on my face and make me feel alright.. through thick and thin, through struggles and happiness.. she was always there..

She makes me want to be somebody, be better.. be the best i can be.. in everything in my life..
she convinces me that i can.. me.. i can do anything.. I love her with all my heart..



dear alyzzah nicole raymundo,

This message is for you.. and all i really want to say is..


THANK YOU.. for always.. being there.. and loving me, supporting me.. believeing in me when everybody else didnt.. putting trust faith hope and love in me..


YOUR MY only "hope."


love,
jeffpaulo.

the weirdest and craziest e-mail i've ever received.

E-mail username : lovehappycakes@yahoo.com


named used: JA

message:

If you really want her to stick around, don't ever let her feel unimportant. God knows how much you love her, I know how much you love her, everyone you know knows how much you love her, she knows how much you love her. When you and her get back together, you will be an inspiration to many other couples to lead the same lives in faith, holiness, and trust. Sometimes you can't do it alone, because you and her are a beautiful unity, too beautiful to be broken.

God Bless.




this really freaked me out but in a good way.. i feel like God sent this message to me.. wow.. what a crazy crazy day.. i love you AR.. you know who u are.. dont ever feel unimportant cuz you are very important to me.. and very special.. sorrie for my short comings.. i miss you and i love you AR.. you know who u are.




spiritually growing, maturing, living life for JESUS CHRIST.. in HIS perfect timing.. we'll be together again..



IN HIM we.. both trust.

work.

it's been almost 2 months that i've been working at my new job. i have to say it's been really chill at the start.. but the longer i stayed the more challenging it got. 1st the biggest challenge i have is waking up early.. because apparently i have lost the ability to wake up early like high school days. it's hard for me now because at night i cant sleep early and the reason is either i am pre occupied with a lot of stuff.. or i aint tired enough to fall asleep.. my boss is like my own mom and it's crazy because she keeps me always at the tip of my toes. she owns a business of hardwood floors in north hollywood and i must say she is so good at what she does. I see her as a businesswoman and an entrepeneur who always strives her best to get things done no matter what. i've been messing up lately with coming to work and yesterday was my 3rd strike. i cannot.. be late nemore.. for work.. because i believe she would fire me.. and i cant afford to lose my job.. i need the money.


on another side of my life.. my relationship with Christ i believe is building up.. i've been consistent in doing my devotions and my actions are changing.. i feel so different now.. like where did 22 years go of my life? it feels like i grew up too fast. i want to go back to high school days.. and experience more young life. anyways.. i'm working on focusing more on Christ more than nething now.. and i really want my relationship with Christ to be genuinely true and real.


i've been going to LA fitness with cyril and i must say i see results already.. i cnt wait for more everytime i got to the gym i get so motivated to get cut and lean and toned up..



well.. this is it for now.. my boss might be coming soon.. i gotta go do business..



i love you alyzzah nicole!





JESUS YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND.. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE... NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE THAT>!

A deeper love.. in Christ.

It's been a very long time since i wrote in this.. but i think ima start writing again since i got a tad bit more time in my hands and i feel like venting out..


for the past year from 2007, a lot of things have been happening in my life.


- i graduated from college

- got a new car

- got my family in shape and together

- rededicated my life to CHRIST...

- i know there's a whole lot more i just cant think of them all right now.


i need to change, change my life.. change it for the better.. i need to put in CHRIST more.. i knoe i should and i need to.. because i knoe that things are not going the way it should be because He's not in total control..


i need to tithe more.. need to be less selfish and put trust in HIM completely..


i need to centralize my relationship with my significant other with CHRIST.. because that's the only way...


i knoe i hurt you.. i knoe i'm not the best when you need me.. i'm not there.. and i yell at you.. i scream and be a jerk.. i'm sorrie.. alyzzah nicole..


here's a couple of quote's that's really got into me.


" For a woman's heart should be so hidden in CHRIST, that he should see HIM (GOD) to find her."

" Our relationship with CHRIST should not be based on rules, but on a deeper love for HIM (JESUS CHRIST)."


these words might loose you.. but it's just thoughts that are inside my head.. i'm not good at writing.. just venting out of my feelings..



I LOVE YOU.. JESUS CHRIST.. help me find you.. get closer to you deeper and deeper day by day. show me the way and plans that you have for me.. and i will follow you..

OK.. uppppppppDDDATES!!!

so much to write right now..


- recommittment to Christ.. number one most important thing that happened to me on to going to the year 2008.. december 30th 2007.

- Taking full responsibility of my leadership for the dance ministry..

- being able to pull through a hard fall semester and pass all my classes and looking forward to a really totally different sem this coming fall 08.. ( no more procrastination and lazyness.. time to grow up.)

- being consistent with devotions..

- 4 years and 2 going on 3 months dis february. I love you alyzzah nicole Raymundo. =)

ok here we go.. the biggest thing i've ever stepped into as far as responsibility wise..

I got a brand new 2008 civic Si coupe.. which got broken into and got my ipod stolen and couple of backpacks in my trunk.. sheesh.. but God is still good.. cuz i'd take a broken driver's window over my broken bones and being in a hospital bed.. ( details about this dont really wanna post up..)..


neways.. here.. something that i'm feeling right now.. and excited about..


it finally really start to sink in my head that i drive a 08 coupe honda civic Si. =). sheesh.



now it's time so start planning to put some mods in. =)


here's my list..

- HID's and amber fog lamps.

- short shifter and stainless steel shift knob.

- coil overs/or springs.

- cold air intake.

- loud but not too loud but sounds beasty clean exhaust.

- supercharger (stage 1 only.) Ultimate last of my list for mods for my car.


excited for the outcome of all this mods.


so yea.. it's 11:33pm right now.. and i finna wanna hit the sac.. wifey's sleepin already and i'ma go sleep now too.. sorrie guys for the long time of no updates.. but my time is always random with this stuff of updating my life.. hehe.. take care and God bless..


" His mercies are new every morning.. and everyday." -